The first time you were able go on yyyyy I thought it would make me happy to be in a good place but now I?m just like I can?t even get out and do my job I just want a good job I just want my life back I just don?t know how I feel right about this now I?m not gonna do anything about this I don?t know how I?m feeling I don?t want this anymore I?m just trying not trying I?m just not